It’s been a really grey and wet day – BUT I got to open the first door on my Christmas calendar, which my mom gave me like every year, so all is good in the Christmas-loving world of Eva…

But more seriously, this day is of course about something else:

You know, I could really live without spam. Weeks seem to go by with hardly anything landing in my inbox – and then, all of a sudden, it just keeps coming. LEAVE ME ALONE, FUCKERS! Umm yeah. 🙂

I haven’t been online all that much lately, although I do try and keep up with things more or less. It’s not that I’m depressed – although I do have down-times and some problems sleeping – but there always seems stuff waiting to be done, and this blog is one of the things that suffer. But I finally finished my internship report, so I figured it was time to show up again…

So, to bring you up to speed, last weekend I attended a bellydancing workshop from uni sport. It was my first time trying Oriental dancing, and it was a lot of fun. Hard work, too, though – especially on Saturday I could hardly walk anymore. I could see myself doing this regularly very well, if it wasn’t for the money issue – uni sport was cheap (advertisement for the instructors), but regular classes are expensive.

In other news, I’ve been enjoying pre-holiday things like putting together lists for Christmas cards and sending out gifts. I’ve spent way too much on gifts already – and I haven’t even started on the ‘real’ gifts for my closest friends and family yet. But I just love picking things out that I think will make someone smile, so the money doesn’t really matter (much). And I got my Christmas bonus from work, so I can kind of justify it. *g*

And before I forget – this week’s Unconscious Mutterings:

1. Reconnect:: old friends
2. Gearshiift:: iiiiiiiiii 🙂
3. Mania:: depression
4. Manhattan:: memories – good and bad
5. First date:: always exciting!
6. District:: of Columbia
7. Yearbook:: such an American thing!
8. Breakup:: hurts. always.
9. Episode:: 1 (too much Star Wars… *g*)
10. Costume:: hobbits

Today is a very grey day, which always makes me feel kind of slow and lazy. Think I’ll go relax for a bit before heading out to class.

I didn’t do any US election posting, not because I didn’t care, but mainly because I was sick. The result definitely worries me, as I think American politics are going into a dangerous direction, at least from my leftist point of view, not to speak of my personal opinion of Mr. Bush. But this article by Mitch Albom (the guy that wrote Tuesday with Morrie) mentions some important points to keep in mind, I think.

Back from RingCon, which was absolutely amazing, with so many impressions that I’ll never forget. I will eventually share some of my photos of guests and actors, but unfortunately I came home with an ugly cold, which has pretty much knocked me down and doesn’t seem to want to leave. 🙁

I’ll be ‘back’ here when I’m feeling better.

I’m feeling kinda discontent and stressed after my first (half-)week of uni. I thought the few classes I’m taking would give me enough time to write my papers despite SAD and all – but now they’ve all turned out to be ‘smart’ classes, where I’ve got to read complicated texts every week and participate in work groups/prepare small lectures. Not good. I guess I should think about dropping some – but I’m not one to do so lightly, not if the subject matter is something that interests me and it’s just the workload the bugs me.

Also feeling generally tense and thin-skinned, despite the beautiful weather outside. There just seems to be so much stuff (both uni and social life wise) that I’m supposed to do, and time seems to be flying by, when all I’ve wanted for this semester was to be so well-organized that I could take things one day at a time. But the way things are shaping up, I foresee a bad winter again. 🙁

Sitting in my room on a Saturday afternoon crying is not my idea of fun. Stupid PMS. Stupid me, too, for feeling let down and left alone by a number of people. I know that sometimes I neglect others, too, but I always try my best. Lately I’ve been feeling that for some, life has changed, and I’m not as important for them anymore as I used to.

With the exception of a couple of people, who are always there, always getting in touch, and not making me wait until I cave and take the initiative, because they’ve got better things to do. Not that they don’t like me anymore, but it’s just that their priorities are different. And all I can do is accept that. And that hurts. Especially in combination with PMS.