I’m faking doing the things I’m supposed to do (like French class), I’m faking being up to talk (with other students, with my family – later today with my therapist), I’m faking smiling and being friendly (and think I’m succeeding). Mainly I hope that it will start feeling real if I fake it long enough. No idea whether it’s SAD or just the aftermath of a bad night with strange and uncomfortable dreams. It’s the first time in months that I’ve felt this way, so I’m not really worried. Everyone has off days like that.<\/p>\n
It’s not as if I’m really down or sad or anything – just a bit… numb. So don’t worry about me, okay?<\/p>\n
Don’t even know why I’m posting this here, except that I haven’t posted in too long again and just want to communicate something<\/i>, even if it’s not the usual ‘this is going on in my life’… Sorry for the downer.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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