They unsuspended my domain at about 1am. But boy, was that a horrible night! And I could not sleep any longer, so I’m dead tired in addition to feeling generally not so great again…
Well, I guess the day can only get better now! Happy Friday, everyone! 🙂
Beware, there will probably be language in this post…
I’ve been sick basically all week, with a short respite on Sunday (when I thought I was well again and went barbecuing with Sibylle and family), but today I felt as if I was getting better finally. I’m still very very tired, though, because I had to go to work, which isn’t very exhausting, but still takes its toll.
So I get home – and discover that my site collective, Raspberry Kisses, has been suspended. Since I’m my own host, I went and unsuspended it – only to discover it’d been re-suspended a short while later. Very strange! All the explanation I saw on the control panel was that the reason was ‘PsyBNC’, which doesn’t mean shit to me.
So I opened a helpdesk ticket – and learned that one of my hostees had been running a hacking/ircing script (namely this PsyBNC thingie) from their subdomain. What the HELL?!
I am just so fricking mad that someone I’ve been doing a favour by hosting them for free could repay me like this. I have no idea what the consequences will be – it’s been 45 minutes since I informed my host about the deletion of said account, and no answer whether the suspension of Raspberry Kisses will be undone.
There is no way I can go to bed as long as I don’t know what’ll happen. This has really shocked me – I never expected anything like this and I still can’t believe it has actually happened. How can anyone do this, to me, to the other hostees? I’m definitely expecting an explanation from the hostee in question – I informed them of the deletion and the reason for it, but haven’t heard from them either.
There are few things I hate more than people who betray my trust – except maybe people who betray my trust and force me to bear the consequences and fricking wait for something to happen. Fuckfuckfuckfuck!!
Sorry for this, but I just had to vent – back to waiting, and hopefully to bed at some point. I think chances are pretty good that my recovery will experience a severe relapse… Isn’t life grand sometimes?
I’m sick again. Flu-type thing. Very annoying. Feel like crap, can’t concentrate on anything (no books, no computer), spent the whole afternoon on the couch watching TV (no-brain activity) and the weather change outside (feels like April, not June).
Very, very bored, yet too exhausted to do anything about it except moan. Blech.
Feels as if I haven’t done anything today, although that’s not true. I spent quite a lot of time starting a big email addy change, because I’m really sick and tired of all the spam I’m getting. I have a good spam filter with AppleMail, but I’m thinking of the Scotland trip in about a month, when I won’t be online much, so I decided to get started.
There’s quite a lot of work involved – like changing the email addies on all the fanlistings I didn’t join with my chocolatedream addy (which I’m keeping, because I like it so much *g*), so it’s good that I’ve given myself a month before I’ll delete the spam-infested accounts.
I did manage to accidentially delete some email, though, so if you left me a comment just recently or emailed my freesurf.ch addy, I lost it.
But oh, do I have enough of this shit now, so I think I’ll go and do some homework instead. Have been a slacker on my paper, because I’ve been sick and all, but at least some uni stuff should get done before the weekend is completely over.
And this was today’s boring post – just about as interesting as I feel right now. 🙂
Not living up to my good intentions at the moment, because I must have caught something from my mom. Oh joy!
Anyways, a couple of lemming thingies, because I haven’t done any of these for a bit:
1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME? Evamaria
2. WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING? dark-blue jeans
3. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Friends on TV
4. WHAT’S THE LAST THING YOU ATE? chocolate
5. YOU WISH ON STARS? only falling stars
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I didn’t even notice, but it’s been ten days since my last update here. In that time I’ve come to some decisions regarding my studies – mainly that it’s high time that I take them seriously and start thinking about more than the next homework, the next paper.
I want to start my thesis and then do my exams in a year (which means that I’ll finish in two years), and I’ve suddenly realized that that’s not such a long time. I have finally found a suitable subject for my thesis (Maori landrights), and that gave me the kick in the ass I needed. There’s so much I have to do and read in order to be able to finish my studies – and I won’t be able to cram that all into the months that are officially allotted for writing the thesis and studying for the exams. It’s time to be realistic and get to work.
But these last couple of days, although I was quite prolific working on my fieldwork paper (finally – it’s only taken me half a year…) and doing homework, have been a bit rough for me. I’ve been pretty stable emotionally in the past weeks, but that balance was shaken and I’ve been going through ups and downs. I know it will pass, it always does, but at the moment I feel quite vulnerable and don’t quite know where (who) to turn to, what to do, to overcome it.
But as always, I’m an optimist at heart and always hoping that tomorrow will be better. There’s so much to be done, after all, no time to hang around and feel sorry for myself.
Over the long weekend I created a new site – I always seem to find new projects to keep me busy… 🙂 Anyway, it’s a site recs for my favorite musicians. Only 16 so far, but there’ll be more, I promise – I’ve got quite a backlog waiting to be added. Also, there’ll be 5 mp3s every Monday, so people can listen into at least some of the music I like.
So, if you like finding new music (or just want to know what I listen to):
Raspberry Kisses /music
Spring has most definitely arrived – the weather is gorgeous most of the time. I’ve been doing some shopping for new summer clothes, although not in Rome. There all we saw were really expensive shops, so it was good old H&M for me again…
Anyway, meeting Sibylle soon to see ‘Dirty Dancing 2’ – Dirty Dancing being one of those movies that I’ve seen at least 20 times over the years (I think I saw it first when I was about 11), that is an absolute must. Hoping for an entertaining evening in any case.
Oh, I got rid of my old birthday script, because I never noticed the birthdays on time. I don’t look at my own blog site so much, after all. So instead I got myself a Birthday Alarm and entered all the dates from the old script. Feel free to add your own! The link can also be found to the left.
Okay, gotta go soonish – but first, this week’s Unconscious Mutterings:
Better late than never, right? 🙂
Rome was great – a lot of walking and seeing of sights was done in a bit more than two days. My feet are definitely glad to be back home… But that’s not the reason I’m posting.
I’m in class at the moment, Online Journalism, and was just introduced to the weblog of the Iranian vice-president. The real one. Absolutely fascinating and unexpected peek into a foreign world.
I’ll be in Rome Thursday evening. Three days and nights in the ‘Eternal City’, and I’m pretty much freaked out. It’s weird how I can’t handle that kind of pressure anymore. But I’ve decided not to let my silliness ruin my chance to finally get to see a city I’ve been wanting to see for ages.
I just don’t know yet how to survive the three days until then, but I know I’ll make it through them without going crazy. So don’t mind me, except if you feel like being all envious… 🙂