Beware, there will probably be language in this post…

I’ve been sick basically all week, with a short respite on Sunday (when I thought I was well again and went barbecuing with Sibylle and family), but today I felt as if I was getting better finally. I’m still very very tired, though, because I had to go to work, which isn’t very exhausting, but still takes its toll.

So I get home – and discover that my site collective, Raspberry Kisses, has been suspended. Since I’m my own host, I went and unsuspended it – only to discover it’d been re-suspended a short while later. Very strange! All the explanation I saw on the control panel was that the reason was ‘PsyBNC’, which doesn’t mean shit to me.

So I opened a helpdesk ticket – and learned that one of my hostees had been running a hacking/ircing script (namely this PsyBNC thingie) from their subdomain. What the HELL?!
I am just so fricking mad that someone I’ve been doing a favour by hosting them for free could repay me like this. I have no idea what the consequences will be – it’s been 45 minutes since I informed my host about the deletion of said account, and no answer whether the suspension of Raspberry Kisses will be undone.

There is no way I can go to bed as long as I don’t know what’ll happen. This has really shocked me – I never expected anything like this and I still can’t believe it has actually happened. How can anyone do this, to me, to the other hostees? I’m definitely expecting an explanation from the hostee in question – I informed them of the deletion and the reason for it, but haven’t heard from them either.

There are few things I hate more than people who betray my trust – except maybe people who betray my trust and force me to bear the consequences and fricking wait for something to happen. Fuckfuckfuckfuck!!

Sorry for this, but I just had to vent – back to waiting, and hopefully to bed at some point. I think chances are pretty good that my recovery will experience a severe relapse… Isn’t life grand sometimes?